第一个兩指指天, 不知何意.. 購自意大利西西利島.
第五个 購自阿根庭, 由歺叉改成, 很有創意.
PAUL ROBESON-OLD BLACK JOE.wmv
I remember when I was a few years old, my mom used to hum this song O Black Joe to me, at that time I did not realize it was quite a sad song.
Gone are the days when my heart was young and gay,
Gone are my friends from the cotton fields away,
Gone from the earth to a better land I know,
I hear their gentle voices calling “Old Black Joe”.
I am coming, and my head is bending low..
My mom came from a well to do family, when she was young, she was sent to study piano at the Shanghai music academy with her chaperon, may be that’s where she learnt this song.
Later, the communist took over China and they threw her in jail for 18 months without any charge, me and 3 other siblings age 2 to12 end up living on the street and almost died, when she was let out everything we owned were taken away, I remembered we slept on the floor using newspaper as mats.( please go to http://standingforest.wordpress.com/ English articles ..mother..for more detail).
She’s obviously in great stress and may be found some comfort in singing OLD BLACK JOE.
Although my parents lived into their 80’s and 90’s, because of all the social upheaval and the communist’s inhumane policies, our family was always torn apart, and I don’t think the six of us ever spent more than 3,4 years staying together, I was the lucky one and lived with mom for about 16 years, but because of my restless and rebellious nature, regrettably I don’t think I gave her much peace of mind to cherish.
Now that I am facing my own end and contemplating about Euthanasia,
Listening to this song and thinking of mom, tears swell up in my eyes…
PAUL ROBESON 1898-1976, was an amazing achiever, he was a lawyer, professional football player, singer, actor and civil rights activist..
基督徒最可惡又可憐之處, 就是自以為擁有唯一真理, 真神, 傲慢又閉塞, 見到在任何不同信仰的就指為異端邪說. 給人類帶來無休止的糾紛與苦難.
我更可憐他們的閉塞使他們自絕於世上其它多姿多采的文化, 風俗. 夏威夷土著本過着無拘無束天堂般的生活, 卻被傳教士指為罪惡必須悔改. 還有中国開明多元的宗教觀, 印度超越式的智慧, 南北美洲土著自成一体的文明, 愛斯基摩, 非洲等貼近大自然的獨特文化, 竟都被視作垃圾必須剷除改造, 這是多麼的殘酷自大無知,缺乏對人類基本的愛與關怀.
他們打着愛與和平的旗幟, 到處攻擊他人,破壞了人類大家庭的和諧共處, 犯了嚴重的侵害人類罪, 實是罪大惡極.
為信仰, 全人類的福祉而自我犧牲者都是偉大的靈魂, 很多聖戰份子,純真的共產信仰者, 紅衞兵都值得我們的尊敬,
至於他們是否好心做坏事, 宣揚專制獨裁唯一真神, 真理, 這是另一悲劇問題.
Western art, religion and literature all have a lot to do with the struggling of the good and bad, right and wrong.
The Chinese has transcended this dualistic struggle long ago;
Know the white , keep the black. Embrace the yang, carry the ying…Tao De Ching.
Holding to one view is an extremist, holding to both views is a saint…Confucian.
One is all, all is one…Buddha.
That’s why In the last two thousand years, Jews, Buddhist, Christians, Taoist, Muslims all have settled and coexisted peacefully in China.
loahan—a highly spiritual person, monk.
Tiger—the wild,animal nature in all of us.
Usually loahan was depicted sitting on top or taking a nap with the tiger, showing he had tamed his animal nature.
This Loahan not only tamed it, but has become it’s friend and playing together in harmony , he has become one with nature, no more dualistic good and bad struggles.
I see my cancer as the tiger and would have love to play with him, but too bad I am not that enlightened.
Thank you very much for your concern about my health.
3 weeks ago CTScan showed that my tumors are growing and spreading, although the size are quite small, it’s a yellow alert, so the doctor decided to change my chemo pill to Everolimus, side effects include fatigue and weakness, nose bleed, mouth & tongue sores, loss of taste and appetite, diarrhea, nausea, cough,muscle pain and skin rash etc.
There is also fluid in my left lung affecting my breathing, even speaking takes a big effort, I have 3 litters of fluid drained in 3 weeks.
I also have a lingering cough from a bad cold 3 months ago, each time I cough is like a heavy duty exercise for the lung, it made me completely out of breath as someone is sitting on my chest and I am ready to pass out, it caused me to vomit a few times which made it even harder to breath and I was completely exhausted.
Everolimus should also help cure the lung fluid, but with it’s side effects and my lung fluid, my doctor decided to stop the Everolimus for a week to let my body have a rest to gain back some strength.
It looks like I might have to install a valve on my chest to drain the fluid daily.
Hopefully Everolimus will take care of both problems soon.
Buddhist believe adversity are the stepping stones to enlightenment,
Since I got cancer 4 years ago, I told myself I am going to enjoy my suffering, being completely out of breath and fatigue are unique experience not everyone can have.
So I will happily fight on.
Again thank you and best to you all.
1 sept. 2014
我認為沒有宗教信仰, 恰是中国人的可貴高尚處, 儒家追求..養浩然正氣, 光輝昭日月. 為了義,寧可剎身成仁, 不可以身害仁. 這比帶有私利(信者上天堂不信下地獄)的宗教信仰有更高迢的精神層次.
人類由迷信宗教, 到掉棄宗教迷信, 進而追求人道, 仁, 義, 天下大同是人類文明進化的過程. 這方面中囯人為先行者, 是儒家的實是求是智慧.
可是腐化了的儒教亦衍生了你所陳列的种种敗象, 所以我常呼吁儒学必須革新, 去蕪存菁.
我無意侮辱国人, 但不幸地, 我認為中国人民的民主素质確是比两三百年前的英、美两国人民的素质还低, 原因如下;
两三百年前的美国移民多數是歐洲的政治與宗教難民, 他們冒死逃到美囯新大陸, 就是要了尋求政治與宗教的民主與自由.
但中国人經過三, 四千年無間斷的專制封建統治,加上中共六,七十年的獨裁荼毒, 專制思維毒素已深入民族血液,成了文化基因.
我参與民運多年, 所見 民運者令人灰心的反民主作為, 不勝枚舉.
所以海外民運搞了廿多年, 至今一盤散沙. 這是我們必須面對的殘酷事實.
1..Jesus, the only son of god
In the New Testament, Jesus was worshiped as the only son of god sent to earth to wash away our sin, but in the Old Testament one cannot find one verse or phrase saying god is going to send his only son to earth as our savior.
Therefore the Jews were right and had good reason to reject Jesus and refused to accept him as the savior.
No matter in the old or New Testament, there is not one verse or phrase describing the formation of Trinity, Trinity was made up by the later preaches to explain the position of Jesus as a holy member, but there has never been a final definition of Trinity as different denominations argue about it over 1500 years, and groups like The Jehovah’s Witness, Mormons and Christian scientologist have outright refuse to recognize the doctrine of Trinity.
3..Origin of the Bible
As a nation, Jews are a late comer in the middle East, before them were the Mesopotamia, Sumerian, Babylonian, Persian and Egyptian civilizations. Ideas of the creation, the great flood, parting of the Red Sea, virgin birth and resurrection etc. were all borrowed from the different cultures. The ancient scrolls,murals and carvings can testify to this.
On the cross, Jesus forgave all who put him to death by saying” forgive them lord, because they don’t know what they are doing”, his unconditional love and forgiving spirit has won him numerous followers.
But the Old Testament clearly stated that only those who made sincere repentance will be forgiven by god, so there is pre-condition for forgiveness, contrary to Jesus unconditional forgiveness.
The Lord’s prayer says ..thy kingdom come, thy will be done , on earth as in haven. We are supposed to practice the spiritual life with our daily living.
But Jesus taught us ..God to God, Cesar to Cesar, to separate spiritual life from our daily life. Another contradiction.
If an African tribe worshiped someone who killed tens of thousands of children as their leader, we will for sure condemn them as barbaric, cruel and uncivilized.
God did exactly the same in Exodus chapter 12, 29-30, yet Christians worship him as a just, kind and loving god, isn’t that ironic, I find that hard to accept in good conscience.